I always say, “I like to live a peaceful life”. A little too peaceful. No risks. No chances. Everything is calculated and planned. I analyze everything, every move. I look at the pros and cons. I am careful in my decisions.
I liked living that way but God was not really with it. One of the things that recently pushed me out of my comfort zone was me becoming a co-host on a podcast. Me, on a podcast. Let me give you just a few reasons why it sounded like a bad idea: I hate talking, especially when there’s other people involved. Not only would I have to talk, it also meant finding my voice, knowing when to jump in, sharing my opinion and being quick to react. It seemed like a bad idea at the time, I mean, I need 3-5 business days to process my thoughts, what do you want from me? Still, I chose to obey.
I won’t lie, the idea of being uncomfortable scared me butI’m not one to back down from a challenge. I went through a range of emotions the first few times, from confidence, to fear, to nervousness, to happiness, you name it, but I wasn’t going to allow anything to take me away from the place where God expected me to be.
Because I took that step, I started feeling more and more courageous. I started believing that I have nothing to lose, if only I could dare. As a result, not only did I gain sisters who challenged me, I also gained the strength I needed to take it one step further and make this blog public, after YEARS of hesitation and backing down.
I can only be me, Esther, and I was made the way I am for a reason, doesn’t mean there’s no room for improvement, or that I won’t cringe every time I listen to myself but it’s part of the game.
We become braver with every step we take. We feel the fear, but we do it anyway, that’s how we conquer.
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Now, I’m excited for the future, cheers to many more !