Esther's Diary – Jesus, Life & Shenanigans

The Story You Tell Yourself

Happy New Year Friends !

I’ve been looking forward to sharing this with you, and I can’t wait for us to get back to our little chats.

2020 was an interesting year. I had a lot of good moments, but it was also very challenging. I had to put a lot of effort in surviving. Before 2020, I never felt lonely or isolated. I never even knew those were feelings I would one day feel, being a natural loner, but this time around was different and I know many people can relate to this. As if the loneliness and isolation weren’t enough, the world didn’t stop. In the midst of all of it, I faced situations I had to process alone, and dealt with strong feelings I had to navigate on my own, with not much to distract me or keep me busy. I had to show up for myself more than once and the struggle was REAL.

Most of the battle went down in my mind, with my thoughts, and I was fighting really hard not to sink. I wanted to give up most days. I didn’t even know what giving up meant for me, but I just remember, I wanted everything to stop. My mind was playing tricks with me, the devil and his minions wanted to throw slumber parties in my heart, it was a lot.

Until one day, my eyes finally opened. I remembered how easy it is for the enemy to distort our reality with his lies, that’s what he does. He will take a situation and twist it to his advantage, that’s how we end up dwelling in emotions we shouldn’t. For example, he will make you believe that heartbreak means you’re broken and not good enough or that the loss of a job means you’re disposable and incompetent. And yes, maybe it can feel like that for a moment but the truth is, the enemy shouldn’t be able to tell you anything! Lies, insecurity, hurt shouldn’t dictate who we become or how we feel. We get to choose which voice we listen to and we decide which story we tell yourself, as the narrator of our life. Which words do we choose to speak? From God or the enemy? It’s really time for us to take our power back.

Heal, process, take responsibility, repent, understand, forgive, then change the narrative ! Trade the lie for THE truth and make it your truth ! If you have to repeat it to yourself 1000 times until you believe it, do so.

When I look back at everything I went through last year that was upsetting, I choose not to continue with the negative narrative but to change the story I tell myself. One very simple exercise I do is counter every lie with a truth or a different narrative: For example:

  1. This situation didn’t work out because I am not good enough (lie) VS It didn’t work out because I love and value myself enough to walk away (Truth)
  2. God abandoned me (lie) VS God never abandoned me, He was always right there with me, even in the darkest valley (truth)
  3. I am not beautiful like the girls on IG (lie) VS I may not look or dress like anybody else, but I am me. I am fearfully and wonderfully made, and a whole lot of incredible things. (TRUTH)

I could go on and on, but now it’s your turn. What story are you telling yourself about that break-up, that failure, that season of your life? What narrative do you need to change?

We can’t let our minds be polluted with lies and pain. We need to hold on to truth and look at life through the lenses of hope and peace.

I can’t wait to hear all about it !!

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